Oh Great.....

Had an U17 county match today against Norfolk.
We drew. 10-10 in games. Which is pretty bad actually.

I play county badminton at U15 and U17. Last year i went to the U17 county championships when i was actually U14. To say that, i think is quite an acheivment. I have worked hard to get to the point i am at and now the county relies on me to help win. I am one of the top rated doubles players in the country and i can hold my own against anyone in the singles. My personal thoughts on this is that its very impressive to be this good at a sport i hate with all of my guts.

I started playing Badminton to impress my father who is county coach. I kept on playing just so that he would approve of me. He still doesn't.

Today i lost my singles to an absolute prick who cheated against me. I won the first set 22-20 (it was actually 21-18) Then i played crap and lost 21-13 and 21-16, which is bollocks. My dad went mental and started going on about effort and how i didn't go to training yesterday. Then i got a threat, a very real and serious threat which he will carry out. When i turn 16 i will be thrown out of home and told to get on with life. Oh Great. Now i'm completely terrified of turning 16. He will do it. I probably won't mind leaving seeing as i hate the man cos he's an absolute.................


I know its really confused and muddled up but i'm a bit distracted within my own thoughts.
I think there is a valid enough reason for this.